According to my dad, my emotions are extremes, either peaks or valleys and no "in betweens." He is somewhat right about that but I don't know if I have really felt extreme happiness in my life and let's forget about sadness since of course, everybody wants to avoid that kind of feeling.
So again going back to the question, Are you happy?
Yes, I am happy. I am happy that... (definitely not in any order)
- I still have a job despite the never ending layoffs going on in the States and everywhere. It might not be the perfect job and I have been really working long hours lately but I'm glad I still have a job that pays me fine for now. With this job, I know my worth and importance in the company and I hope it continues to be that way wherever I am at.
- I have my family who love me and I feel that even when I am so far away from them. Actually, I feel that even more here than when I was back home. I long to be with them. I long to see Elisha. I long to be home and just enjoy Mom's cooking and kulitan with siblings and cousins.
- I have a boyfriend who may not say the right words but makes me feel important and loved. Life here in the States has certainly become easier with him around. It's not that I am dependent on him or we are dependent to one another but it's just good to know that at the end of the day, there's someone who is there to listen and be with you. Of course, we get into each other's nerves from time to time but we know when to say sorry and we know how to compromise. I hope this relationship continues to be good.
- I have friends... I have few here that I can really call friends but I am grateful that they are true friends. This year, I gained some more. I have a lot of friends too at home that I maintain the friendship despite the distance. It's actually funny coz I feel like I'm even closer to some of my friends at home than I have ever been with them back then.
- I know myself more and that I learned a lot in my life.... that States has made me realized a lot of things... that it made me a better person at least in my point of view. I learned to see the real world and not the ideal world that a lot of people are still dreaming of and forever wanting that leads them to being unhappy.
- I can buy for now the material things that I need and want at times. Call me materialistic but it's true, it gives me happiness be it temporary or not. Anyway, nothing in life is constant, hahaha. Take note I only buy and learn to like the things that I can afford.
I am sure there are other stuff that make me happy but at the end of day, happiness is a state of mind. Each person has different ways and extent to be happy. What satisfies me might not be satisfying enough for someone or what I take no care of might be so important to someone. There is nothing wrong in aiming high but we should still be realistic and not shoot for something impossible. We should find happiness in what we have and work on getting what we still want to have.
Errrrrrrr, I am not happy that I'm turning 31!
