The Big 30... and almost there

A lot of my friends that I grew up with and learned stuff with have already reached their 30. In a little over 2 months, I'm hitting my BIG 30.

What really happens when you're like half a life time away from your teens? Well, I think things are so different now as to how our parents were on their 30s. My mom for one had three kids already at age 30 (which means that my dad was so closed to having 5 kids/or having me already at his 30) and I'm quite positive that majority of their batch had their own families at that time. For all of you who do not know, my parents were consistent baby makers for 6 six years of their lives , lol :P. Now in the US, it's like 50-52% of people at their 30s are still single or not married or divorced.

Honestly, it does not really bother me that I'm reaching my big 30. What bothers me at times is that there's still a big part of me that thinks and acts like a child. Sometimes, I wonder if I would still be like this twenty years from now. I know it's not good at times but I also think that that's the secret to looking young. Maybe that's why everytime I have my hair done or my nails done, people still ask me like what school I go to or if I came here to study and even Asians (who normally look young than the other genes) ask me these questions.

I think I have always been a late bloomer. My siblings were all consistent honor students in grade school while I wasn't. My brothers would even refer to me as the "latak" or the "residue" of the family. I started to excel in my studies only in 3rd year highschool but that still didn't stop me from being an introvert/shy young girl at that time. Dang, I dreaded oral recitations, presentations and contests (even Math which was always my fave subject). I was even afraid of boys especially of the boys that I liked and/or who liked me. They always misinterpreted my actions as being a snob. I could even count the number of times I got flowers in highschool. I missed out a lot of good opportunities to shine in school since I backed out on a lot of them. I only started going out on real date when I was at 20 and was working already. I worked for seven years in the Philippines before I came here and started all over again.

Hmmm... I guess when you're nearing 30, you can't help reflecting on what have happened to your life and one thing I realized is that no matter how old you are, there's no such thing as too late. It's all up to you to make the most of what you have and what you want to achieve. Yes, I consider myself a late bloomer but that never stops me from continuing to bloom. I think that that even makes me want to achieve more and learn more in life. I have also learned to know more about myself, my capabilites and to overcome my fears. My family, friends and even old acquitances were actually shocked to see a different and independent me.

Life begins at 30... at 40... or whenever you want it to begin... For as long as you're living, you have the choice to start anew with whatever you want to change in your life. My only hope is that whatever age or stage I am in my life, I would be happy and contented.

I'm nearing my 30... No big plans yet in life... not even close to settling down or having my own family but I'm happy and contented with what I have in life... I'm still discovering more about myself, about my special someone, about the people around me and about the States... and I'm loving it... I think I belong here. :)