Points to Ponder

Which hurts more?... "Finding that your ex-boyfriend who broke your heart last year is now engaged with a girlfriend he has for three months" or "Being engaged with a guy whom you think and most people think is not good for you but yet you are blinded by love."

Oh well, I guess the latter does not really hurt at once coz you may not know what is wrong at that time since love makes you blind but eventually, you will suffer too especially when you're living together already. Love is not always in its honeymoon stage and you cannot survive by love alone. Also, it is a natural reation to feel bad when you find out that someone in your past has found his happiness and is ready to take the next step with another person that he wasn't able to give you. That hurt doesn't last long though, it is just an after-shock effect of the pains of your break up.

Ever wonder why this person is so madly in love with that someone even if you don't see that someone as pretty, nice and worth loving? What makes him fall for her? What makes him want to spend a lifetime with her? The only answer is "compatibility." There is such thing as "match." A barong tagalog can never go well with a pair of jeans (be it True Religion, Seven, or Rock & Republic) but it will definitely look good with a pair of gray or black slacks (na gawa ng kapitbahay nyong mananahi na si Aling Mila).

Don't try to overanalyze things and don't question your worth when things don't go your way. Whether you're a jello, a creme brulee, minatamis na saging, nata de coco, etc, there's someone who thinks you're the best thing ever and wants to even have you everyday.

RENT

Last night was my first time to watch a play in the States. Alright, I went to New York last March but unfortunately Kuya Joma got dizzy and sick the night we were supposed to watch a play (Men's excuses... it was for real though). So, yesterday, I watched RENT with Matt at Pantages. I could barely see what was going on at the first set since I was stupid to leave my glasses at home. I appreciated it more on the second set since I rented a binocular when I saw that they had one. I liked the music and the lead guy, Roger. Overall, it was awesome!



I learned my lesson not to leave my glasses no matter how small my purse is if ever I see a play again. :)

Thanks to Milkboy for the dinner and play. Hmmmm... I really like that he accompanies me to this kind of stuff and can watch cheesy and chick flick movies with me. I guess, it's better to start a man early with this kind of stuff so that he can get used to it before he even complains, hahahaha. :)







Isn't it obvious that he is not into having and taking pictures?

Iceskating Night

It was iceskating night last night with my coworkers. I was not really in for it since I don't know how to skate. I know, I tried iceskating once at Megamall eleven years ago when my organization, Mafia (Management of Financial Institutions Associations at DLSU and not the real Mafia, ok?),had this Iceskathon as fund raising activity. I knew back then I was just at the side with my group of friends, holding on to the bars while we skated (errrr... walked). Most of the people at that time didn't know how to skate so it was fun but there was one orgmate who was excellent so I went to the center only when he was holding me.
So, yesterday was a different thing. Majority of the people there knew how to iceskate and it was really crowded. I was with Matt, Kelly, Rick, Samson, Nick, Ariel, Anil, Anup and Anshu. The latter four plus me did not know how to iceskate while the others were fine and they went rollerskating and rollerblading too when they were younger. Matt and I were the first ones to buy tickets. Ariel backed out the last minute. I was scared all the time and I remember myself humming while tying the shoelace of my iceskating shoes. Matt was of course laughing while he asked "What's that you're doing?." All I said was, "I guess, I'm trying to calm myself down.," hahaha. So after putting all our stuff in the locker, we went to the iceskaing rink. There I was very scared and not even two minutes of being on the ice, I fell. Damn, it hurt so bad and it left a big bruise on my knee. Huhuhu, Matt didn't catch me. He was very patient though telling me what to do and how to control the skates but I was very adamant to learn and to release my hand from the wall. On the other side of the rink, Anshu was really struggling while Kelly was trying to help her out. Anil fell three times. He even saw stars at his last fall when his head hit the floor but he still went on. Anup who also didn't know how to skate was very cool in making his baby steps but he was successful in whatever trick he was doing.

After 45 minutes or so of trying to balance on the corner while holding on to the wall whenever I felt like I was going to fall, I finally had the courage to release my hand and followed Kelly's instruction on how to skate. Matt was skating while I made progress and Kelly told me how he was looking at me from afar and he was happy that I finally took control of my fear. I made a big progress, I was kinda skating in the middle already and I think I made two laps until they told us to go out of the rink since it was time to clean the ice. Damn, that was scary! After they cleaned the ice, we went back in but it was so slippery and I was struggling again and back square one. Ten minutes after, I gave up and I just stayed with Anshu, resting on the bench while the other half of our group skated. Rick, Nick and Anil had major falls since it was really slippery. After twenty minutes or so, we finally decided to leave.

That was a fun experience even if it left bruise on my knee (that will probably disappear after a month still). I didn't want to bruise or scratch myself since I am going to wear a dress tonight to watch the play, Rent. Well, I knew I would though if I joined them in iceskating so as expected, it happened, hahaha. It was worth the fun and the care that Kelly and Matt showed me. I know Kelly is always a sweet person so that wasn't new. I was shocked with Matt though coz I didn't really expect him to be like that. Actually, up to now, I'm still amazed on how he has been acting towards me lately. I guess, it's really better when you're not expecting something from a guy. I am really enjoying my moments with him. Last night, we didn't really care if we were acting as a couple in front of our coworkers.

Damn, she's so in love!

Cousins rule!!!! Guess who is she?




I checked out my cousin's site and she just created a new blog site, http://artikulet.akoniya.com. (Sorry cuz for posting this one. Don't worry, only a few know about my blog.) When I read her new blog, all I said out loud, alone in my empty room, was "Damn, she's so in love!" I'm really happy for her. I know he loves her so much too and it really shows but I never really expected my cuz to be like this. I guess, I never saw this side of her. All I saw were her crazy and weirdo ways in this side of life. Oh well, people change/changed and so did I!
Her blog name says it all, she's maarte, makulit but very articulate too. I love her so much and there's never a dull moment when we are together... laughing, laughing and laughing while people around us wonder why.
I miss you joyings... sticker... xtine, tin... joy... neney (what's that??? hahahaha!) I must thank the cupid who did that to you. You truly deserve the "joy" that you're experiencing.

Home Sweet Home

It has been three months since I finally able to rent a place on my own. It was hard at first and it still gets lonely from time to time but overall, I am loving it.

My place is still a work in progress but I have to take it slow to furnish it fully since it's costly. Of course, the mothly rent by itself is pricey than ever. Oh well, this is my simple home. It's worth it! :)

Save, save, save

I think I've been spending a lot lately. When I first started here, I could save more than now to think that I was earning so little at that time. Oh well, it's really true that as your income goes higher, your way of living follows. I have to exert more effort to save up. I think, I shopped a lot last month so no more shopping for me unless they're necessities. I even made a spreadsheet, listing my bi-monthly income and expense, to help me save. I hope I be successful. Gotta save for the rainy days!

Two Years and Still Counting

Today, I celebrate my second year of Independence Day. It's a day early from ID4 but technically, I got here July 4, 2004 Philippine time or even NY time. What a coincidence, it's my Independence day too but independence from the Philippines and it's also my Fil-American Friendship day (as how Philippines celebrates July 4). It's really a friendship day for America and me since I have to build a good relatioship with this country for me to survive.

To celebrate this, I had lunch/dinner at Cheesecake Factory with Matt at around 3pm. This time, everything was on me (drinks, appetizer, entree and even dessert). I figured it was time to treat him since he has been paying for the fancy restaurants that we've been eating for the last 2-3 months. That man deserved a treat, hahaha. Althought what I spent didn't even amount to the average meal that he was paying for those months. Oh well, I told him to choose a nice place so that was not my fault at all.

Looking back on how I was two years ago, I can say that I really made a big progress. As I told Matt, I think I am doing pretty good for a foreigner here in the span of two years. All he said was, "You are doing pretty good even for an American." Hearing that from an American made me feel good. I must have really established a good friendship with America. I think, I got lucky too. Despite the heartaches and challenges I experienced here, I made it through. Of course, I am still a work in progress here but I'd like to think no matter where life leads me, I don't have to worry as long as I try my very best. I'm no extraordinary person. I feel lazy too at times but I really value my work. With the break that I got here, I should really work my ass and make good use of my current situation.

Now, it's getting clearer that I like it here more now. When people ask me if I plan to stay here for good, I can now easily answer, "Of course or else what am I doing here and why waste my years here." I still miss a lot in the Philippines especially my family and friends. Like I've said before, I can even count with my fingers the good friends that I have here but overall, this is a better place. It gets lonely at times but it makes me a tougher person. I have my worry in finding the right person and buiding my own family here since I barely know a few people here and don't even have the chance to meet more people, and also divorce is so rampant here but maybe if it's really for me, it will happen. After all, I am pretty good in tough and rare situation.

So, here I am on my second year and still counting. Every year, it gets better. I lose some and I win some. Definitely, the gains are more than the losses. I'm loving the States! :)