YOU

You’re very different and I like you so much. I have never met a guy who doesn’t give me praises with how great I look or who easily gives me compliments except you. I’ve never seen a guy who doesn’t really call or send me messages. How do you do it? How do you make me feel not to care but care at the same time? What’s up with you? Are we making a slow progress here? When will I not be scared and just tell you how I am feeling? Until when will I be challenged? Until when will I reach out to you? Why oh why with you, I can’t really tell? When will I be sure that you like me for who I am and what I am doing. I know, I don’t really like aggressive men and no matter how good looking they are, they make me not want to go out and like them but you are exceptionally hard as a rock! Where are your emotions? When will we ever admit to one another how we truly feel? Damn, I like you so much!!! I’m so not good in this situation.

Make me wonder why...

What am I doing here? Why did I choose to be here? Is this really the right choice for me? Why am I far away from home, my family and dear friends? When will I finally say to myself that this is home? These questions make me wonder. I’m sure everyone of you has the same feeling at some point in your life… it can be with the work that you have, the person that you’re with or any situation that you question being there but isn’t it that when you’re trapped in this kind of feeling that you are able to do well? This is the time that you discover more of yourself and your capabilities. I know, I like challenges in life but when do I say enough is enough? I’m crazy… I like challenges but they make me weak at times too. Maybe, I’m in this situation because I still like it and can still stand it.